Rough Day

we have had so much happening in our lives the past while, that today I decided to take a me day. I did not do much but play on the computer and read a book. But I was having a very emotional day today and needed ME time. I know that as a mother and a wife that may sound selfish, but sometimes you need it.
I read for a while, I went shopping and the I went to the Salt Lake City Cemetery my mom's parents and 2 of her siblings are buried there. I took some red roses ( Pappy always gave Grandma red roses on the anniversary 1 for every year of marriage. P lace on on each grave and just sat and talked and cried to my grandparents.I know that they heard everything I said and cried about. I was very comforting to me to be able to go up there. Grandma and Pappy are my mom's parents. They passed away 6 months apart 1985 and 1986.I was very young.
In 1984 i lost my Grandpa Lund to cancer and in 2002 I lost my Grandma Lund to a terrible lung disease.Because the rest of my grandparents died when I was so young I never developed a relationship with them. However Grandma Lund was different. I called her everyday sometimes 2 or 3 times a day. We had a very special relationship, more than grandmother granddaughter more like friends. Grandma and Grandpa Lund are buried in Bountiful so I do not get up there very much.
I am so grateful fro all of them. I miss them terribly but I know that there are holes in the floor of Heaven and they are always looking down on my family.